Of all the ridiculous expressions people use—and people use a great many ridiculous expressions—one of the most ridiculous is “No news is good news.” “No news is good news” simply means that if you don’t hear from someone, everything is probably fine, and you can see at once why this expression makes such little sense, because everything being fine is only one of many, many reasons why someone may not contact you. Perhaps they are tied up. Maybe they are surrounded by fierce weasels, or perhaps they are wedged tightly between two refrigerators and cannot get themselves out. The expression might as well be changed to “no news is bad news,” except that people may not be able to contact you because they have just been crowned king or are competing in a gymnastics tournament. The point is that there is no way to know why someone has not contacted you, until they contact you and explain themselves. For this reason, the sensible expression would be “no news is no news,” except that it is so obvious that it is hardly an expression at all.
Lipstick smeared like a bloody gash.
Clouded, lifeless eyes ringed with Kohl-
Or are they just bruised?
Sallow skin shows the puckered red scars
In contrast to the purple-black hand prints.
Your name used to taste like honey,
But now it’s turned to ash on my tongue.
The weight in my chest is crushing
As I lie awake at night.
Stuck in this perpetual back and forth,
Truth or lies,
Live or die.
I hide from the world,
Because it’s all I know.
You taught me that.
I shy away from life
Just as life shies away from me.
I used to hope for better days,
When the fog clouding my mind
Would clear and the weight of the world
Wouldn’t feel so heavy.
But then again,
I’ll probably always feel this way.